C2e2 started today and i totally forgot to get passes or some kind of ticket to get in. i feel like a mixture between goof ball and whatever.
How do i describe it? on one hand i feel like i should be there and on the other I don’t see a point in going there with out having a table. last year i got a pro pass and it was a complete waste of time. All I did was go around and spend money for 3 days. It was dope to get to meet people and chat but at the end of it you feel like you need to support these people and i just wanted to chit chat and net work. ugh plus I went by myself which is never fun to do. I don’t really regret not going, Ill prolly get a sunday pass. Im sharing a table at heroes con anyway and need to prepare for that.
goddamn i got some much fucking work to do and i still need more money. this lifestyle is fucking hard some days. well actually alot of days. its something i dont want to admit but fuck its hard. its great because every day im getting better and better at this shit but my wallet is hurting. i need more jobs, i need to work faster but now i cant fuck up and make shitty work. people are paying me. my rent is due at the end of every month and i need to save for taxes. its very troubling and trying to figure out ways to navigate this thing is so hard. but holy fuck. I inked two pages today of my new comic and they look great. i slapped a lil bit of tones on top of em and they look pretty cool. now my hand hurts and ive been doing a little bit of day drinking but today fucking ruled. i just have to figure out how to letter these pages in clip paint studio which im dedicating to elarning this year instead of photoshop. i mean this program is literally meant to be used for image making. i need to take advantage of it.
god i want to get better at life. i want to get better at adulting. i hate that i can only focus on one thing at a time. i wish i was super human. anyway.
tomorrow i need to scan in urges, plus the two new pages i finished. i need to work up some drafts for the gundam commissions cause i fucked up and didn’t read the email correspondence correctly so i need to start over. i also should start painting a no rush commission. what else. i also need to start thumbnailng a work for hire comic gig that is due at the end of the month. i cant do it. jesus im starting to get overwhelmed. but i can knock it all out. i know i can.